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Waiting in the Midst of the Storm

Waiting in the Midst of the Storm

October 29th, 2012 (4 Comments)

Hurricane Sandy is on her way today, she is forecast to come ashore as a Category 1 near Atlantic City – 80 miles away. I just came back from an hour of prayerful wandering in the four directions all around the property clad in full rain gear, as it is already pelting down. I just couldn’t stay indoors for my meditation this morning! (ha – dear old dog Zeti came back in 2 minutes ..)

The creeks are flooding already, it was stunning to watch and listen to the roaring as new courses were being made through the colorful leaves and summer detritus. Dozens of fresh rivulets are already branching in all directions in the lower end of the property. It was mesmerizing to see the brilliance of summer wash downstream to the southeast where the vortex of Sandy swirls in the ocean. Wildness already roared around me in the wind and falling leaves in the driving rain. I held close to tree trunks and felt the clacking branches high above me. I offered them my prayers to stand tall and hold fast; they whispered the same to me.

I joyfully picked a huge pot of leeks and kale and tatsoi to make a hearty soup and brought in the last of the stunningly beautiful peach dahlias. The yellow Angel trumpets are still blooming – bright heralds of light in the shadowy garden. I even found a few ripe figs that were simple deliciousness itself.

What a good time to remember the gift of letting go of all my plans, all the organizing and cleaning of our stuff, and especially to offer back all my fears, and find a way of rejoicing in the gift of how Mother Nature’s most powerful storms have a way of recycling all that is. It is a time to strip bare and realize my essential powerlessness while still holding the swirling vortex of creative passion within that waits to be released. So today I will write, cook tasty comfort food and watch the storm gather force. I think we’ll refrain from watching the hype of the TV newscasters and remember in loving sympathy all those who truly suffer in the world, here and elsewhere. This is a time to be grateful above all for Love, for Earth and for all the Mystery that swirls around us.

As Howard Thurman has said in his ‘Meditations from the Heart’:

How good it is to center down!
To sit quietly and see one’s self pass by!

The streets of our minds seethe with endless traffic;
Our spirits resound with clashings, with noisy silences,
While something deep within hungers and thirsts for the still moment and the resting lull.

With full intensity we seek, ere the quiet passes,
a fresh sense of order in our living;
A direction, a strong pure purpose that will structure our confusion and bring meaning in our chaos.

We look at ourselves in this waiting moment — the kinds of people we are.  The questions persist: what are we doing with our lives? -
What are the motives that order our day?
What is the end in our doings?
Where are we trying to go?
Where do we put the emphasis and where are our values focused?
For what end do we make sacrifices?
Where is my treasure and what do I love most in life?
What do I hate most in life and to what am I true?
Over and over the questions beat in the waiting moment.

As we listen, floating up through all the jangling echoes of our turbulence, there is a sound of another kind — A deeper note which only the stillness of the heart makes clear.

It moves directly to the core of our being.
Our questions are answered,
Our spirits refreshed,
and we move back into the traffic of our daily round.

With the peace of the Eternal in our step.

How good it is to center down!

 

4 Responses

  1. erin says:

    wow. how lovely. thank you for sharing from your heart and soul.

    is a rich part of my day. was so wonderful to be with you.

    i love you,
    e

  2. Julie says:

    Beautiful! I was also inspired to write a bit about today — it’s not finished yet. Thank you for your gift of words and the lovely verse from Thurman.

  3. Allene says:

    You feel and express so powerfully — and gently — I’m
    grateful for your deep ‘seeing’ and knowing.
    Love,
    A

  4. Bob O'Brien says:

    Very nice – beautifully done.

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